Recovery- Day 19

Believe it or not, staying in the hospital with your child actually has some perks. The one on one time is unparalleled. There is no pressure (and no possibility) to leave, to be anywhere, to make play dates. Just me and him. 

Abe has been with us all day, everyday. Our families have stayed for countless hours and made sure we had plenty of delicious, non-cafeteria food to eat. But the one on one time I've shared with Santi over the past 19 days is priceless. They haven't been the best or most enjoyable days of our lives, but they are days I will cherish. Days when I could be there for him, around the clock, without distractions. I cherish them because they are rare and limited days when all he needed was me. 

Another perk of our extended stay? Watching him sleep. At home, as soon as he's napping or in bed for the night, I'm off to take care of other things around the house. I check the baby monitor, but I don't take the time to just watch him sleep. Here in the hospital when he falls asleep, I get to enjoy the precious serenity of his sweet face and tiny body. I love to watch him drift off to dreamland so comfy and cozy. Getting the space, time and solitude to see a toddler at rest is really special. I wish the circumstances were different, but I'm grateful that I can recognize every bit of joy in a dark situation. 

This guy. He is everything.